Techniques for nudging personal change

I've decided to talk to the Gohonzon. If you're a Buddhist then you will know what this is, but if not, it's a scroll inscribed with sanskrit and old japanese characters. I chanted to it and, in my mind, told the stories of my day, the epiphanies and little happinesses, the things I feel bad about. A meeting about public mental health and measuring & enhancing wellbeing led to a sudden glimmer of a vision that excited me, of a society based on mutual respect, of genuinely caring about each other and making real the types of public policies that really help to get people well, not only back on their feet when they're down, but beginning to thrive. Public money should be spent less on delivery of services and more on giving people the means and encouragement to find their own solutions. Perhaps not brain surgery of course...
Talking to the Gohonzon.... I want to challenge a limiting belief. I don't share much about my daily experiences because I don't believe I'm someone who's worth listening to, that what I've got to say is valuable. It is valuable, not because I think I'm wonderful but because when we talk and share, we create ourselves. We add to our own narratives. My experiences slip downstream, barely acknowledged, until a day, a week or a month later they pop back from the slipstream and bite me on the arse. I cry too much. So many external events trigger off inappropriately strong feelings because there's so much ignored. I'm like a jug filled to the very brim, the slightest thing sets the water running... So, I've decided to challenge this. Techniques deployed are:- 1. Chanting every evening to the Gohonzon, with 100% respect for myself and acknowledging how I felt about the day's events. Feeling totally heard. 2. Challenging my belief that my day to day experiences have no value & that I'm not interesting. May include a little CBT and some live experiments to test out thinking /behaviour patterns.

First Time

This is the first time I've blogged anything. The point of having a blog? It's a therapeutic tool, a place to create the narrative and to TELL. Too many years, mostly all of my years actually, not being heard because, well, I've never told. I want to be listened to, but I have to be the first person to hear before I can talk to anyone else. Hence this blog. Maybe a mistake! It's taking a risk and I do hope that readers tread gently. It's personal but I want to take the risk of sharing, because eventually I want to be able to say that I found this a useful way of making sense of my experience. Call it self-therapy if you like, but I'm going to do this.